Thoughts June 2 2009

Im sitting at home today , and my thoughts run amuck as usual. Im pretty well done over all. Im done with the economy, Im done with world religions squabbling, Im done with hypocrites, Im done with money, Im done with war, Im done with brainwashing, Im done with the lack of understanding and love. Im done. I could mention more, but I cant, for it would be a page worth of " Im done withs".
Im tired of hiding my thoughts, Im tired of hiding who I am, and what I am. Im no scholar, and I dont have higher education, but I do have intuition, and I do have feelings. And I do believe in the fact we are connected to Divinity at all times, and therefore our thoughts are are not to be ignored, for many times Divinity speaks to us through these thoughts. But we must use discernment between what is the bodily mind, and what is the Divine soul.
I have friends and family who will hardly speak to me at times because of differing opinions on religion and government. I dont care anymore. I have my life, I have my thoughts, I have my loved ones, and I have my children, I need nothing more, and answer only to myself. My only wish is to impact the thinking of others, and to opens the eyes of those who will refuse to see the world around them.
I have a huge chip on my shoulder with Christianity, I will admit. It is difficult to explain, and I wont get into it, save only the fact that after years of sutdying other avenues, other faiths, and other ideas, I found to many similarities in the world, and to many overlapping ideas to believe there is “ one way”. For years I was held captive to the thought that many loving and caring people in the world would burn in hell for not accepting Christ., een my friends. I was saved, yet guilty in the fact that other than the beliefs I held, I was no different than many people around me. So why do they deserve the flame? How could a loving God create us , and doom the non believers to hell? Is this a loving God? A caring, graceful God? I think not. A device of humanized fear written into the pages of doctrine and dogma.
I was saved, and by all intents, purposes, and ideas of the christian belief, I am still saved. Once saved always saved, right? Ill argue this with any one. I need only confess my sins. Right? Once my eyes opened, I was bitter, and felt cheated. Cheated like I had been lied too. For I was beginning to understand there were other “ truths” in the world. Not so much truth, but ideas that explained even the wildest questions I had that the Bible could not answer. I have argued with others on forums, blogs, discussion boards, and such. One may argue the point of ones religion very easily by delving into material strictly written on or supportting that religion. I dont care. My argument is that history is rewritten to manipulate the thoughts and actions of mankind, and thus our greatest theologies are tainted, and our governments corrupt. Feeding on the week minds of the world by use of fear, hate, and deceit. One only need to listen to ones heart, and use simple discernment to understand the world around them.
One may claim Christ came only 2000 years ago to save mankind, but my contention is if God is an all knowing, and loving God, why create an imperfect world and allow sin to exist in the first place? Creating an imperfect world makes a complete mockery of what I had envisioned God to be. We are so weak to believe this, and mindless as well. No, I do not imply that people I know, or friends are mindless, it is a human condition we must learn to over come. The condition of feeling so unworthy, that we need to be saved in order to become pure. As well as the idea that we believe most anything based on our fears. And oncewe believe, enjoying the feeling of relief that we are ok now. The very feeling we get when one becomes “ saved”.
The concept makes me sick. The concept that such ideas have been the basis for war , hate, and tyranny in centuries past. We have drawn lines and point fingers at what is right and wrong based on our own assumptions, and narrow view of the world. I see it all now, and struggle to put it into words. I only know what I feel and see as the basis for my concerns. I fear nothing, save missing out on what I should accomplish in this lifetime. I fear no death, and I fear no evil.
I refuse to live my life in a box sealed by dogmatic views based on the assumptions of mankind. I cannot concieve anything else. I dont need salvation, and do not fear hell. I have answered many questions for my self, and invite any and all with questions to ask me. I was taught as a Christian that anything else in the world beside what I believed was evil and of the devil. I do not believe in a devil, and the evil in the world is our own doing. Yet I will tell you a deeper mystery....there is no right or wrong. Can you conceive that? Factor that with the idea we should not judge, for we know not what a soul is here to accomplish. Many of us live our lives in the “box” only to discover after death we have missed yet another opportunity to create a magnificent life while we are here! We were created in Gods image yes! Then are we not creators as well. Have you not heard it said we have not begun to understand the power of the human mind? How is it many read minds? Heal the sick? Solve yet the worlds greatest problems? It is not a God given talent to do miracles, it is our birth right!!! WE are GOD! We are ONE!
Yet we do not conceive these things in a world wrapped up in commercial and dogmatic brain washing!! WE spend our lives arguing sensless points to justify our own beliefs, when we should simply work to make the world a better place for all. All races, all creeds, and every nation. We would rather watch Disney or play games on the computer than read a book to expand our thought. We would rather ignore the homeless to take our family out to eat. Im tired of our way of thinking. But just patronizing the wounds of society wont make it go away. My other thoughts are much more stern. Some of the trash must be eliminated. Crime , waste, deceit, mental sick ness. My thoughts here areome back next time rooted in deeper theologies and mystery than many will understand. Love and understanding must be fostered, while the garbage in our lives, and society are abolished. Murderers must be put to death. I will not listen to human rights, whiney ass comments, or arguments on this. Your body is a shell. What is you is the soul. A murderer has fullfilled, in my opinion, the job his or her soul came here to do. You live many lives, and your soul is eternal, therefore, its time to check out. Come back next time. And public executions such as hanging, will certainly curtail any local crime. Instead of rehabilitating hardened criminals, why dont we rehabilitate the homeless, for they are certainly in more need of a bed, food, and education. Not an inmate.
I got off track here. I am venting, and I want to do something about the world we live in. I will, and I am determined to do so. I am sick of all of it, and yes my opinions are radical. I dont care. If you have questions, I will answer them. If you are a christian, and have questions not answered by the Bible, I will answer them with love and understanding. I am not asking you to abandone your faith. Governments need to change, religion needs to change, and our way of living and thinking needs to change.